innocence, joy, melancholy, angst, anxiety and even some outright anger feat. my weird, overwhelmed brain
GOD today is the mondayest Monday ever
Passing stranger! you do not know how longingly I look upon you,
You must be he I was seeking, or she I was seeking, (it comes to me, as of a dream,)
I have somewhere surely lived a life of joy with you,
All is recall’d as we flit by each other, fluid, affectionate, chaste, matured,
You grew up with me, were a boy with me, or a girl with me,
I ate with you, and slept with you—your body has become not yours only, nor left my body mine only,
You give me the pleasure of your eyes, face, flesh, as we pass—you take of my beard, breast, hands, in return,
I am not to speak to you—I am to think of you when I sit alone, or wake at night alone,
I am to wait—I do not doubt I am to meet you again,
I am to see to it that I do not lose you.
— Walt Whitman
my 300 emotional support Firefox tabs™
oooo the me from yesterday bought a muffin for the me from today! thank you, silvia
ah, the slow burn trope. isn't it interesting
Tonight, the moon's drawn its curtains
It's a private show, no one else gonna know
well mark manson is at it again:
Three critical life skills that nobody teaches you: how to ask for honest feedback, how to take honest feedback, and how to give honest feedback.
now i need to FAKE IT TILL I MAKE IT more than ever!
burn the page, my little dark age
can't wait for my panic holidays™
MOVE WITH ME, I'M STRONG ENOOOOOUGH TO BE WEAK IN YOUR AAAAAARMS
MOVE WITH ME, I'M STRONG ENOOOOOUGH TO BE REAL IN YOUR AAAAAARMS
...i'll see myself out
sometimes i just need to hibernate for a bit
stupid sexy orange robe
much love to you all today
*goes back to... being tired or whatever she's focusing on today*
number of times I've played dumb today: 2 (and the day isn't over!)
The grief is hard, yes. But I just realized, I am the lucky one. I am a blank canvas. I am free to do as I please.
yep they did
will my gym clothes dry overnight? 🤔
the TRIPLE MENACE
lately my mind be like
so much laughter today
THE HORRORS PERSIST
BUT SO DO YOU
HANG IN THERE, FRIEND
yay 0 (zero) days without accidentally bumping into strangers
I am going to happen
What a lovely day it is
silvia, your local muse of nonsense
what a good day today
RENDER ME SERVER SIDE
(the day has come: finally, work is making me lose my mind)
AAAAAAAAAAH SO STIFF
finally becoming a gymbro. wish me luck
let's walk across this forest, i can feel everything being real again
people on tumblr be like "I'm not a native speaker, this might not be perfect, my apologies in advance, blah blah etc etc" and then proceed to post a perfect text full of nuance and feeling and asdfghdsafhgsaf what I am even doing with my life??? It's so impressive I cannot even be jealous. I am in AWE
so pinterest, huh?
FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT
currently: imploding https://twitter.com/meka_moru_4se/status/1442073012178591749
having a room of one's own: *chef's kiss*
today i moved some Very Important Pieces of furniture. my life is going to be so much better now
...very hard, very often HAHA *laughs in NSFW*
Today this week this year my patience is certainly being tested very hard, very often 🙂
from now on i'm the
artist human being formerly known as Shirubia
I read things! And I've written about it! Unvelievable. Well done, me: Estado de mis lecturas de 2023 (part 2)
let's try again i guess
Today my patience is running thin.
in these trying times, i must remember the multiple dogs that have blessed me
sick af again. but yesterday a corgi looked at me
EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE FINE
18° is all i get
listening to the same song for, like, 15 hours straight: completely normal.
I can't believe people did use to tell me I should smile more. Like, the misogyny was there right in my face
whatever you do, stay soft
i'm doing the same as her
i'm transforming it all to anger and letting go of the softness and it's dangerous
BLACK POMERANIAN!! #blessedx2
my gf ♡
You forget what made
you happy in favor of
what kept you alive.
i'm a time traveler
today I unexpectedly crossed paths with a pomeranian, and she greeted me! 😯 #blessed
Entering my "do you want a hug" era
Competence is how good you are when there is something to gain. Character is how good you are when there is nothing to gain.
People will reward you for competence. But people will only love you for your character.
Cleaned up more than a hundred tabs today! 🧹 pinboard.in is a life saver
is PMS a b*tch? i think so
it's funny how I get automated spam calls offering me to test hearing aids for free, and it's this robot voice with terrible audio quality
Today had been a nice day with plenty to do. Then at dusk I started to remember bad things bc why not, and now my anxiety is through the roof. This poor body of mine... Feeling scared for no real reason
the other day a friend from work said "every time i see something about Animal Crossing i think of silvia", and it warmed up my old little heart
I feel like i make the same mistakes over and over again. how do i make it stop.
I want to live both in:
an apartment in a stately building with high ceilings and a long history. Also: proper laundry space & bathrooms with windows
a brand new flat with a modern air conditioning system, that will be energy efficient & built with soundproof materials (finally peace & quiet!!)
how can I do this yahoo answers
isn't Duran Duran's bass player great???
I want to thank you for all the nothings, baby,
'cause nothing gained ain't lost at all
if i read "excellent opportunity for investors" one more time i'm going to have a stroke
There are many wrongs, but remember, those wrongs are just illnesses, not sins; errors, mistakes, but not sins. You are not guilty. You may be ignorant; you may not know as much as is needed to live a pure and innocent life, but that means you are ignorant, innocent – not guilty. Try to understand the distinction very well, because on it depends much.
i thought i wouldn't get lonely, but here we are
183 open tabs in Firefox! i think i just broke my personal record
nah... not that easy
everything is different, but oddly familiar
maybe I will get closure after all
for me, coding is like retreating to a comfort zone
a coping strategy
a defense mechanism
a dr-you get the point
well this is inspirational https://therat.bearblog.dev/confessing-my-stupidity/
I put together this doodles gallery super quickly, lest I get lazy and postpone it forever: https://sentimentalfuturist.net/art/
Hope to get back into drawing 🤔🤔🤔
I'm watching Sherlock again and I don't know how to put it, but it's like, I can't unsee all the fanfiction vibes now aaaa 🙈
so my mind is a tunnel:
This score suggests that you are more Monotropic than about 60% of autistic people and about 97% of allistic people based on data from the initial validation study.
why am I like this? (extended version) — silvia feat. her sad, overwhelmed brain
boy, do I need strength today
happy bithday to him, the one indelibly etched in my soul.
gotta tidy up 🧹 my new domain 😳
WHAT IS THIS 5P0T1FY SHIT
IT'S LIKE 50% MUSIC 50% ADS
I DON'T EVEN
could I be... improving at coding?... surely that's not possible ellipsis ellipsis 🤔
"how come your family has made several poor life choices????" yeah well not everyone has had enough resources + higher education to have better options at their disposal. it's devastating how some people cannot even... dunno, imagine for a second the life experiences of a less privileged person. like come on. get your head out of your ass
Oooo that must be what the youngsters now call "goblin mode"
I love this game
almost new moon 🌑
If left to my own devices I would probably be by myself, immersed in my interests or living inside my head, like 90% of the time.
Technically it's not summer yet, but I'm sweating already 🥵🌞
current status: liminal 🌫
Reading challenge, the only thing going well right now:
You've read 10 of 12 books. (83%)
maybe on earth. maybe in the future
Just found out that, in The Storygraph, you can mark a book as "did not finish", and you can even add an explanation on why and how far you got (in pages or in percentage). What a great app ❤︎
Reading challenge is going well for once:
You've read 5 of 12 books. (42%)
Took a while, but I finally repaired the pop OS bootloader. I've missed linux 🥲
found a song I can play on repeat and won't get tired until a week or so
I've already endured two weeks of fantastic firecracker festivities
WHEN WILL THIS END
Well, today is the day 😑🍇🎗✨
I want to buy a house in some far away town. Forget about everything and everyone
Finally I can resume watching The X-Files 🛸 Just started the 4th season, I've still got so much to see! 🥰
I want to code websites again
today, being me is: deeply uncomfortable
Lately I've found myself missing Internet forums, of all things. You can have conversations with people on social media, but you don't get the same sense of community you had in old school forums.
vscode, long time no see
The moon looks so mysteriously orange tonight 🎑
Definitely, fresh bedsheets are one of life's greatest pleasures
got tired of social media so I'm going back to the basics... this is nice 🤔
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