some thoughts... 💭

innocence, joy, melancholy, angst, anxiety and even some outright anger feat. my weird, overwhelmed brain

Sun 03 Nov, 2024 - 17:25

People are dying, but our politicians are too busy trying to humiliate each other... this is shameful https://www.nytimes.com/2024/11/03/world/europe/spain-floods-valencia-volunteers.html

Mon 28 Oct, 2024 - 15:56

woah it's so cold 🌧️🌧️🌧️

Tue 22 Oct, 2024 - 9:13

biology enables, culture forbids

Fri 11 Oct, 2024 - 17:47

This tea recipe is a great discovery: Easy Homemade Japanese Royal Milk Tea Recipe

Tue 01 Oct, 2024 - 15:55

September flew by 😵‍💫

Sat 21 Sep, 2024 - 13:50

I have so many ideas for updating/revamping this website and so many projects in mind... and so little time I don't know where to start lol

Fri 20 Sep, 2024 - 14:43

97 tabs open and counting - CAN'T STOP WON'T STOP

Mon 16 Sep, 2024 - 20:37

it's good to be back home

Tue 10 Sep, 2024 - 19:43

I just cleaned an old silver necklace (I've had it since high school or so) and wow, now it looks almost as good as new! Didn't think the baking soda thing would work that well

Wed 04 Sep, 2024 - 10:03

Back to the grind 🫥

Wed 28 Aug, 2024 - 12:51

Trying Eleventy for the first time 🤔

Sat 24 Aug, 2024 - 12:33

If rest becomes a form of recovery from work, as is the case today, it loses its specific ontological value. It no longer represents an independent, higher form of existence and degenerates into a derivative of work. Today's compulsion of production perpetuates work and thus eliminates that sacred silence. Life becomes entirely profane, desecrated.

—Han Byung-Chul, The Disappearance of Rituals

Mon 19 Aug, 2024 - 13:28

happy birthday🕯️

Sat 03 Aug, 2024 - 20:10

is this becoming the rainy season or what

Thu 25 Jul, 2024 - 17:59

🥵🫠

Fri 19 Jul, 2024 - 11:27

well

Happy international BSOD day

Tue 09 Jul, 2024 - 18:22

wish I was on vacation 🫠

Fri 05 Jul, 2024 - 20:19

liters and liters of body mist

Mon 01 Jul, 2024 - 9:52

today would be a perfect day for staying in bed ⛈

Fri 28 Jun, 2024 - 20:10

becoming a gymbro - back from hiatus edition

Wed 19 Jun, 2024 - 18:55

DAMN MOSQUITOES. THEY LOVE ME, DON'T THEY

Tue 18 Jun, 2024 - 15:17

so many projects, so little time

Sun 16 Jun, 2024 - 23:17

tired and longing. but can't complain...

Sun 09 Jun, 2024 - 20:02

I burn forever, I have no end

Wed 05 Jun, 2024 - 11:52

need to find a nice Firefox fork or something 🤔

Mon 03 Jun, 2024 - 10:12

plans within plans,

virtual machines within virtual machines

Sun 02 Jun, 2024 - 17:33

an unexpectedly cold day

Thu 30 May, 2024 - 11:59

status: exhausted beyond my means

Mon 27 May, 2024 - 17:31

weekend was too short 🥹

Fri 24 May, 2024 - 15:32

weekend is coming! ♡

Wed 22 May, 2024 - 19:36

setting opera as default browser 🤞

Thu 16 May, 2024 - 10:21

the official end of an era... and a new start

Sun 28 Apr, 2024 - 18:51

went for a walk and caught three shinies in Pokémon Go! ✨ what are the odds??!

Wed 24 Apr, 2024 - 18:35

PANIK

Wed 24 Apr, 2024 - 18:35

asjdksfghgdfhsadgfhjs

Mon 15 Apr, 2024 - 10:22

Monday, almost Friday 🥲

Thu 11 Apr, 2024 - 23:40

still feeling under the weather... and so my mom spent hours making soup, even tho she hates cooking, just to make me feel better 🥹

it was delicious

god bless her pure soul

Wed 10 Apr, 2024 - 18:41

not this again! 🤒🤧

Thu 28 Mar, 2024 - 20:49

i want it to be tomorrow already 😳

Wed 27 Mar, 2024 - 14:35

MAKE YOUR GYMBRO / GYMSIS / GYMSIBLING PROUD 🌟

(never thought I would write those words in that order)

Mon 25 Mar, 2024 - 16:00

runny nose 😒

Fri 22 Mar, 2024 - 13:26

why do i have not one, not two, but three Teams versions?? is this a joke or

Fri 22 Mar, 2024 - 10:10

my thoughts are elsewhere 😌

Wed 13 Mar, 2024 - 18:53

WELL

Mon 11 Mar, 2024 - 21:32

my shoulders are cracking beyond their means

Fri 08 Mar, 2024 - 14:00

the last coffee 😔😔😔😔😔

Thu 07 Mar, 2024 - 18:03

teaming.net is an excellent example of how to do things RIGHT

teaming.net screenshot | Confirm your email

the sheer number of websites that do not even ask you to confirm your e-mail address... appalling

Wed 06 Mar, 2024 - 11:53

you don't move slow, i'm taking steps in my direction

Wed 06 Mar, 2024 - 10:09

looooooooord give me the strength to SHUT UP but now it's for different reasons

Tue 05 Mar, 2024 - 18:00

looooooooord give me the strength to SHUT UP

Mon 04 Mar, 2024 - 13:42

GOD today is the mondayest Monday ever

Sun 03 Mar, 2024 - 15:33

To a Stranger

Passing stranger! you do not know how longingly I look upon you,

You must be he I was seeking, or she I was seeking, (it comes to me, as of a dream,)

I have somewhere surely lived a life of joy with you,

All is recall’d as we flit by each other, fluid, affectionate, chaste, matured,

You grew up with me, were a boy with me, or a girl with me,

I ate with you, and slept with you—your body has become not yours only, nor left my body mine only,

You give me the pleasure of your eyes, face, flesh, as we pass—you take of my beard, breast, hands, in return,

I am not to speak to you—I am to think of you when I sit alone, or wake at night alone,

I am to wait—I do not doubt I am to meet you again,

I am to see to it that I do not lose you.

— Walt Whitman

Sat 02 Mar, 2024 - 21:07

fallas

ugh

Lucretia, by Lucas Cranach the Elder

Fri 01 Mar, 2024 - 11:22

my 300 emotional support Firefox tabs™

Thu 29 Feb, 2024 - 11:46

oooo the me from yesterday bought a muffin for the me from today! thank you, silvia

Wed 28 Feb, 2024 - 15:33

ah, the slow burn trope. isn't it interesting

Tue 27 Feb, 2024 - 22:44

Tonight, the moon's drawn its curtains

It's a private show, no one else gonna know

I'm wanting

Mon 26 Feb, 2024 - 18:33

well mark manson is at it again:

Three critical life skills that nobody teaches you: how to ask for honest feedback, how to take honest feedback, and how to give honest feedback.

Sun 25 Feb, 2024 - 22:34

now i need to FAKE IT TILL I MAKE IT more than ever!

Fri 23 Feb, 2024 - 17:49

burn the page, my little dark age

Mon 19 Feb, 2024 - 23:40

can't wait for my panic holidays™

Sun 18 Feb, 2024 - 22:40

MOVE WITH ME, I'M STRONG ENOOOOOUGH TO BE WEAK IN YOUR AAAAAARMS

MOVE WITH ME, I'M STRONG ENOOOOOUGH TO BE REAL IN YOUR AAAAAARMS

Sun 18 Feb, 2024 - 14:00

MAIN! MAIN!!*

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E0ozmU9cJDg&t=208s

...i'll see myself out

Sat 17 Feb, 2024 - 19:40

sometimes i just need to hibernate for a bit

Thu 15 Feb, 2024 - 22:04

stupid sexy orange robe

Wed 14 Feb, 2024 - 11:18

much love to you all today 🫶

*goes back to... being tired or whatever she's focusing on today*

Tue 13 Feb, 2024 - 18:07

number of times I've played dumb today: 2 (and the day isn't over!)

Tue 13 Feb, 2024 - 10:32

The grief is hard, yes. But I just realized, I am the lucky one. I am a blank canvas. I am free to do as I please.

Mon 12 Feb, 2024 - 11:17

yep they did

Sun 11 Feb, 2024 - 21:09

will my gym clothes dry overnight? 🤔

Fri 09 Feb, 2024 - 19:43

the TRIPLE MENACE

Fri 09 Feb, 2024 - 15:49

lately my mind be like

the "pepe silvia - connecting the dots" meme superimposed on a pic of that The Office guy staring at you

Thu 08 Feb, 2024 - 22:54

so much laughter today 🫶

Wed 07 Feb, 2024 - 15:47

THE HORRORS PERSIST

BUT SO DO YOU

HANG IN THERE, FRIEND

Mon 05 Feb, 2024 - 18:50

yay 0 (zero) days without accidentally bumping into strangers

go me

Mon 05 Feb, 2024 - 4:26

I am going to happen

What a lovely day it is

Sun 04 Feb, 2024 - 21:27

silvia, your local muse of nonsense

Thu 01 Feb, 2024 - 22:10

what a good day today

Mon 29 Jan, 2024 - 18:15

RENDER ME SERVER SIDE

(the day has come: finally, work is making me lose my mind)

Sun 28 Jan, 2024 - 13:52

AAAAAAAAAAH SO STIFF

Sat 27 Jan, 2024 - 17:40

finally becoming a gymbro. wish me luck

Thu 25 Jan, 2024 - 22:47

let's walk across this forest, i can feel everything being real again

Mon 22 Jan, 2024 - 11:19

people on tumblr be like "I'm not a native speaker, this might not be perfect, my apologies in advance, blah blah etc etc" and then proceed to post a perfect text full of nuance and feeling and asdfghdsafhgsaf what I am even doing with my life??? It's so impressive I cannot even be jealous. I am in AWE

Sun 21 Jan, 2024 - 15:34

so pinterest, huh?

Fri 19 Jan, 2024 - 17:12

FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT

Tue 16 Jan, 2024 - 16:39

currently: imploding https://twitter.com/meka_moru_4se/status/1442073012178591749

Sun 14 Jan, 2024 - 23:38

having a room of one's own: *chef's kiss*

Sat 13 Jan, 2024 - 22:39

today i moved some Very Important Pieces of furniture. my life is going to be so much better now

Thu 11 Jan, 2024 - 11:55

...very hard, very often HAHA *laughs in NSFW*

Thu 11 Jan, 2024 - 11:50

Today this week this year my patience is certainly being tested very hard, very often 🙂

Sat 06 Jan, 2024 - 11:26

from now on i'm the artist human being formerly known as Shirubia

Fri 05 Jan, 2024 - 18:16

I read things! And I've written about it! Unvelievable. Well done, me: Estado de mis lecturas de 2023 (part 2)

Mon 01 Jan, 2024 - 17:49

let's try again i guess

Wed 27 Dec, 2023 - 21:05

Today my patience is running thin.

Wed 20 Dec, 2023 - 13:32

in these trying times, i must remember the multiple dogs that have blessed me

Fri 15 Dec, 2023 - 14:26

sick af again. but yesterday a corgi looked at me

EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE FINE

Fri 08 Dec, 2023 - 17:58

18° is all i get

Mon 04 Dec, 2023 - 23:43

listening to the same song for, like, 15 hours straight: completely normal.

right?

Mon 27 Nov, 2023 - 12:00

I can't believe people did use to tell me I should smile more. Like, the misogyny was there right in my face

Tue 21 Nov, 2023 - 18:23

whatever you do, stay soft

Sun 19 Nov, 2023 - 1:27

i'm doing the same as her

i'm transforming it all to anger and letting go of the softness and it's dangerous

Wed 15 Nov, 2023 - 18:16

BLACK POMERANIAN!! #blessedx2

Sun 12 Nov, 2023 - 17:42

my gf ♡

Jill: Getting old isn't a curse, it's an achievement.

Sun 12 Nov, 2023 - 11:16

You forget what made

you happy in favor of

what kept you alive.

an accidental tumblr haiku

Sat 11 Nov, 2023 - 21:30

i'm a time traveler

Thu 09 Nov, 2023 - 22:08

HI JOWARMA

Sun 05 Nov, 2023 - 13:25

🫣

Fri 03 Nov, 2023 - 22:49

today I unexpectedly crossed paths with a pomeranian, and she greeted me! 😯 #blessed

Tue 31 Oct, 2023 - 23:44

enough with feeling like Creep. why not feel more like Talk Show Host

Sun 29 Oct, 2023 - 1:17

Entering my "do you want a hug" era

Mon 23 Oct, 2023 - 15:28

Competence is how good you are when there is something to gain. Character is how good you are when there is nothing to gain.

People will reward you for competence. But people will only love you for your character.

―Mark Manson

🤔

Sat 14 Oct, 2023 - 22:34

https://thoughts.sentimentalfuturist.net/#1694903385

Cleaned up more than a hundred tabs today! 🧹 pinboard.in is a life saver

Sat 14 Oct, 2023 - 22:28

https://thoughts.sentimentalfuturist.net/#1696875713

is PMS a b*tch? i think so

Tue 10 Oct, 2023 - 12:32

it's funny how I get automated spam calls offering me to test hearing aids for free, and it's this robot voice with terrible audio quality

Mon 09 Oct, 2023 - 20:21

Today had been a nice day with plenty to do. Then at dusk I started to remember bad things bc why not, and now my anxiety is through the roof. This poor body of mine... Feeling scared for no real reason

Sun 08 Oct, 2023 - 15:06

the other day a friend from work said "every time i see something about Animal Crossing i think of silvia", and it warmed up my old little heart

Wed 04 Oct, 2023 - 13:14

I feel like i make the same mistakes over and over again. how do i make it stop.

please

Tue 03 Oct, 2023 - 11:42

I want to live both in:

how can I do this yahoo answers

Sat 30 Sep, 2023 - 21:31

isn't Duran Duran's bass player great???

Sat 30 Sep, 2023 - 12:04

This article blew my mind: Human financial product

Thu 28 Sep, 2023 - 22:34

I want to thank you for all the nothings, baby,

'cause nothing gained ain't lost at all

Tue 26 Sep, 2023 - 21:17

if i read "excellent opportunity for investors" one more time i'm going to have a stroke

Tue 26 Sep, 2023 - 16:57

There are many wrongs, but remember, those wrongs are just illnesses, not sins; errors, mistakes, but not sins. You are not guilty. You may be ignorant; you may not know as much as is needed to live a pure and innocent life, but that means you are ignorant, innocent – not guilty. Try to understand the distinction very well, because on it depends much.

foreverliketh.is - Readings that have helped => Guilt

Wed 20 Sep, 2023 - 23:27

i thought i wouldn't get lonely, but here we are

Sun 17 Sep, 2023 - 0:29

183 open tabs in Firefox! i think i just broke my personal record

Thu 14 Sep, 2023 - 19:28

feeling trapped

Sun 10 Sep, 2023 - 23:04

https://thoughts.sentimentalfuturist.net/#1693594304

nah... not that easy

Fri 08 Sep, 2023 - 17:58

stock photo of a smiling lady in some brochure

IT'S HER

animated gif of the same smiling lady, now typing nonsense

Wed 06 Sep, 2023 - 22:15

everything is different, but oddly familiar

Fri 01 Sep, 2023 - 20:51

maybe I will get closure after all

Thu 31 Aug, 2023 - 22:56

for me, coding is like retreating to a comfort zone

a coping strategy

a defense mechanism

a dr-you get the point

Tue 29 Aug, 2023 - 22:30

one more week

Tue 29 Aug, 2023 - 22:25

trust no1

Sun 27 Aug, 2023 - 19:38

well this is inspirational https://therat.bearblog.dev/confessing-my-stupidity/

Sat 26 Aug, 2023 - 21:50

I put together this doodles gallery super quickly, lest I get lazy and postpone it forever: https://sentimentalfuturist.net/art/

Hope to get back into drawing 🤔🤔🤔

Sat 26 Aug, 2023 - 14:20

I'm watching Sherlock again and I don't know how to put it, but it's like, I can't unsee all the fanfiction vibes now aaaa 🙈

Thu 24 Aug, 2023 - 17:09

so my mind is a tunnel:

This score suggests that you are more Monotropic than about 60% of autistic people and about 97% of allistic people based on data from the initial validation study.

Wed 23 Aug, 2023 - 23:40

why am I like this? (extended version) — silvia feat. her sad, overwhelmed brain

Tue 22 Aug, 2023 - 20:50

attention: WINAMP SKINS! https://skins.webamp.org/

Tue 22 Aug, 2023 - 9:27

😞

Mon 21 Aug, 2023 - 20:03

a lot

Mon 21 Aug, 2023 - 17:39

boy, do I need strength today

Sat 19 Aug, 2023 - 19:22

happy bithday to him, the one indelibly etched in my soul.

Fri 18 Aug, 2023 - 11:59

gotta tidy up 🧹 my new domain 😳

Wed 16 Aug, 2023 - 18:32

WHAT IS THIS 5P0T1FY SHIT

IT'S LIKE 50% MUSIC 50% ADS

I

I DON'T EVEN

Mon 14 Aug, 2023 - 21:25

hah

Wed 09 Aug, 2023 - 22:35

could I be... improving at coding?... surely that's not possible ellipsis ellipsis 🤔

Tue 08 Aug, 2023 - 19:33

"how come your family has made several poor life choices????" yeah well not everyone has had enough resources + higher education to have better options at their disposal. it's devastating how some people cannot even... dunno, imagine for a second the life experiences of a less privileged person. like come on. get your head out of your ass

Tue 01 Aug, 2023 - 8:17

https://thoughts.shirubia.net/#1688737920

Oooo that must be what the youngsters now call "goblin mode"

Mon 31 Jul, 2023 - 20:14

I love this game

VA11 HA11-A - Version: The Ballad of a Gay Ghost 1.2.3.0

Sun 16 Jul, 2023 - 21:13

almost new moon 🌑

Fri 07 Jul, 2023 - 15:52

If left to my own devices I would probably be by myself, immersed in my interests or living inside my head, like 90% of the time.

Mon 12 Jun, 2023 - 17:22

Technically it's not summer yet, but I'm sweating already 🥵🌞

Thu 08 Jun, 2023 - 16:15

current status: liminal 🌫

Sun 07 May, 2023 - 12:00

Reading challenge, the only thing going well right now:

You've read 10 of 12 books. (83%)

Wed 03 May, 2023 - 17:59

maybe on earth. maybe in the future

Wed 19 Apr, 2023 - 13:50

Just found out that, in The Storygraph, you can mark a book as "did not finish", and you can even add an explanation on why and how far you got (in pages or in percentage). What a great app ❤︎

Thu 06 Apr, 2023 - 17:58

Reading challenge is going well for once:

You've read 5 of 12 books. (42%)

Sun 02 Apr, 2023 - 13:32

Took a while, but I finally repaired the pop OS bootloader. I've missed linux 🥲

Tue 14 Mar, 2023 - 17:54

found a song I can play on repeat and won't get tired until a week or so

day: fixed

Mon 13 Mar, 2023 - 10:39

I've already endured two weeks of fantastic firecracker festivities

WHEN WILL THIS END

Wed 08 Mar, 2023 - 12:01

Well, today is the day 😑🍇🎗✨

Sat 04 Mar, 2023 - 22:04

I want to buy a house in some far away town. Forget about everything and everyone

Wed 01 Mar, 2023 - 22:05

Finally I can resume watching The X-Files 🛸 Just started the 4th season, I've still got so much to see! 🥰

Wed 22 Feb, 2023 - 17:50

Amazing pixel artist: https://www.artstation.com/norma2d

Mon 20 Feb, 2023 - 9:33

I want to code websites again

Thu 16 Feb, 2023 - 11:56

today, being me is: deeply uncomfortable

Tue 14 Feb, 2023 - 20:08

Lately I've found myself missing Internet forums, of all things. You can have conversations with people on social media, but you don't get the same sense of community you had in old school forums.

Tue 14 Feb, 2023 - 7:32

vscode, long time no see

Sun 12 Feb, 2023 - 0:39

The moon looks so mysteriously orange tonight 🎑

Thu 09 Feb, 2023 - 22:46

Definitely, fresh bedsheets are one of life's greatest pleasures

Thu 09 Feb, 2023 - 19:31

got tired of social media so I'm going back to the basics... this is nice 🤔


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